InvaderRiri

How do you know you're tired as all hell? When you start making theories about the government that even you acknowledge them as stupid. When everything blurs in and out of vision. When you somehow find yourself awake at 5 fucking 30 in the morning wanting to do nothing more than just sleep but you can't because sleep seems very fucking impossible in the hottest room in the world. Like, seriously, My room cannot get any hotter. Whose idea was it to build my bed near the ceiling? I am dying of heat up here and I can't even sleep on the floor anymore! You know you're tired when you realize you have to stop rambling even though this is meant to

I have decided to ask my Dad for a long black wig to cosplay Jade. I'll be taking a trip or 20 to Value Village to put together my cosplay. A long denim skirt and a white tee should do... I can draw a thing on. yeee. I want to just say to someone that I only post journals if I want a response or something. That, Or It's 4am and I have no control over what I do. Soo...yea. Anywaysss, I think I should probably end this journal early and get ready to school. I have Guitar and Dance todayyyyy~ w (https://www.deviantart.com/w)@

Looking back on a few things, I sorta feel extremely stupid. I get a pain in my chest just thinking of him. It hurts so much know he can't be mine. I just wish I spoke up when I had the chance. But no matter what I do, he seems to be more distant with every conversation. Just when I think I'm finally getting somewhere, I watch him  dump me like yesterdays trash to hang out with his newer friends. Right when I decide to get over him, he comes back and restarts the cycle! It is so infuriating! If he's going to toy with me, it would be marvellous if he would do so consistantly! I mean, fuck! And as if that wasn't bad enough, it seems like when